Like a Pony : JessieKitty.org's Personal Blog

I've been watching this show about a woman looking for the son she gave up for adoption 19 years ago.... and it makes me very emotional.... because it makes me wonder if my mother is somewhere, crying, looking for me, like this lady on tv. She'd probably never be able to find me considering how much my family moved, and how much I've moved as an adult.

I think I heard about some adoption registry where you can like... put up a classified ad of yourself, for searching birth parents to look through. Hm.

*weepy*

There's also strange feelings that it's a dishonor to my mother to even CARE about my birth mother. My whole life I could tell she was insecure about me 'wanting' my other mother or.. something..